In Five Years

I’ve been silent for awhile. I started writing again awhile ago, just here and there, kept the posts as drafts thinking I’d come back and publish them; never did. Life has gone on obviously since then. I got laid off, found a new job, went on vacation, had a birthday, I even have a son due in November. Through it all, however, my mind seems to be getting more and more off track. My overall plan is getting hazier instead of clearer. A big part of that, I’ve realized, is because I stopped writing, stopped keeping a journal, stopped getting things out of my head and down onto paper. The longer I go without writing, the harder it is to get back into it and start getting my life back in order again. I didn’t even really want to write this post, but I’m forcing myself, and I’ll force myself to publish it. Probably without proof-reading, as I’d use that as a form of delaying it and then might not even post it.

There’s a lot of stuff I have to still get out of my head, get organized, and get moving on, but at least this is a start. I can’t do it all in one day, which is tough for me to realize and work through, it might take months, most likely years for what I really want, but I’ll get there, just have to keep moving forward one step at a time.